I am not weak because I am sad. I am not strong if I have no fear. Bravery is charging into battle even though you are afraid. If you have no fear, you have no bravery you just have stupidity.

Sometimes I don't cry when I am sad, I am not covering up or in denial, I just have already processed the loss and am still sad just no tears.

I feel a lot better now that I have given up false hope and have just accepted the loss we have and the losses we will see. If you live long enough everything you ever loved will die. I am crying right now for the losses to come. I will shed these tears and press on because you can do nothing else but deal with what is, what will be. Say the serenity prayer and do your best.

TEK