You were such a roller coaster. I guess you understand it was all in your head. Your responses to your emotions were displayed in your body.

We always must love our bodies, treat them with proper care and attention. We don’t and can’t always have a body of which we are proud but we must treat our body with respect and love. Give it what it needs and not poison it even when our head just wants to escape. Life is hard and sometimes we just want to escape, avoid the hard work of taking care of our body. If you cross the bridge to despair, to not caring not loving our body no matter how flawed it is a slippery slope, I am glad you were able to climb back up but you are still only 33 and I know that even working hard to love my flawed body at now 60 I will have to accept that nobody will find my body sexy but does not mean I can stop working hard at being the best I can be for my body.

TEK